Stars Over Clear Lake
By: Loretta Ellsworth
Publisher: Thomas Dunne Books
Red's Rating: 5 Touching ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐!
For the first time in decades, Lorraine Kindred has returned to the ballroom where she was swept away by the big bands during the 1940s - and by a star-crossed romance. As she takes in the magnificent energy and brassy sounds of her youth, the past comes to life, along with the fateful decision all those years ago that forced her to choose between personal conviction and social expectations, between the two men who had captured her heart. It had been a time of great music and love, but also of war and sacrifice, and now, trying to make peace with her memories, Lorraine must find the courage to face buried secrets. In the process, she will rediscover herself, her passion, and her capacity for resilience.
Set during the 1940s and the present and inspired by a real-life ballroom, Stars Over Clear Lake is a moving story of forbidden love, lost love, everlasting love - and self love.
Loretta received her BA from the University of Northern Iowa, and an MFA from Hamline University in writing for children and young adults. A former middle and high school teacher, she's the author of four young adult novels, The Shrouding Woman, In Search of Mockingbird,In a Heartbeat, and Unforgettable. Her WWII historical novel, Stars Over Clear Lake, will be published in 2017. She has four children and six grandchildren, and lives in Minnesota. Follow her on Twitter @lellsworth.
I haven’t been inside this place in fifty years,” I say softly as I pause in front of the sand-colored brick building. The outside of the Surf Ballroom hasn’t changed from when it opened in 1948, its rounded roof making it look like a roller derby from the outside. A bedrock of Americana tucked in a small town in north central Iowa, the ballroom is often overlooked, despite its contribution to musical history. But to me it’s so much more. The memories are like seaweed, pulling me down and threatening to suffocate me. It’s only because they’re honoring my late husband that I’m here tonight. The marquee above me reads Fireman’s Ball. Underneath the marquee is the empty ticket booth where bobbed-haired Violet Greenwood used to work. She’s been dead for twenty-five years, but the image of her dispensing tickets with a cheery smile and pop of her gum is as fresh in my mind as this morning’s coffee. I take a breath and reach for the handle when the door bursts open. My daughter stands on the other side, her blue eyes wide at the sight of me. “Where have you been? I called your cell phone five times!” Daisy’s red sleeveless dress shows off her thin frame and healthy tan, and complements her highlighted blond hair. Botox treatments have eliminated the inherited crease between her eyebrows. No one would guess she’s in her forties.
But Daisy is standing stiff-necked, her veins sticking out on her throat as though my presence here is stressful. “I had it turned off. Didn’t want to run the battery low,” I say evasively. “Mother, what’s the use of having a phone if you never have it turned on?” She shakes her head. “You shouldn’t even be driving.” “What do you mean? I’ve never had an accident.” “That’s because Dad did all the driving when he was alive. A person’s reflexes aren’t as good at your age.” “Why does that make me unfit for driving? Isn’t that age discrimination?” She lets out an exasperated sigh. “Oh, never mind, Mother. Come in before you melt out here.” I suck in a breath, blinking out the sunlight as my eyes adjust to the darkness. The expansive lobby holds a gift shop, offices, a small hallway filled with pictures to the right, and the main hallway leading to the dance floor. The old coat check sits off to the left; a long counter with a red laminate top glistens in front of the numbered rows that lead to the deep recesses of hangers. I gape at the lobby’s blue walls, the ones with the painted yellow pineapples. I’d forgotten about them! And the multicolored carpeting beneath my feet, bright colors that practically shout to be seen. I grab Daisy’s arm. “It’s just like I remember it. The fancy lobby and swanky coat check room . . .” “Yes, it hasn’t changed,” Daisy replies. “We had a terrible time trying to decorate. We couldn’t use colored paper and the lighting was a nightmare, but I think it turned out okay. The bathrooms could use a renovation, though, and my husband is already on his second drink.” We pass a table full of paper flyers. I pick up one that advertises the Winter Dance Party next February, a show honoring the original in 1959 when Buddy Holly, Ritchie Valens, and J. P. “The Big Bopper” Richardson gave their last performances. They died a few hours later when their plane crashed just north of Clear Lake. “Kind of early to be advertising, isn’t it?” I ask. “It’s only August.” “Not really. The tickets go on sale in October and they sell out every year. Harry and I went in costume last year. We had a blast.” I crinkle my nose. “Almost seems morbid to celebrate their final performance.” “I don’t think so,” Daisy says. “You know what the Bible says: time to mourn and a time to dance.” “Yes, it does,” I say, keeping to myself the irony of my daughter quoting Scripture when she only attends mass on scheduled holidays, and as far as I know, hasn’t cracked open a Bible since her youth. “Besides,” Daisy says, “we went with the mayor and his wife. They might hire me to redesign their bathroom. I think they’re coming tonight, too.” “The mayor? Isn’t he related to Lance Dugan?” “Yes. Lance is Chad’s uncle.” “I went to school with Lance.” I let out a soft sigh. “That was ages ago.” I take a tentative step onto the wooden floor of the ballroom, and despite all the people mulling about, the conversations and music around me, I feel as if I’m the only person here. Off to the left is the stage, the heavy red velvet curtains drawn back. It’s flanked by fake palm trees trimmed with tiny white lights. I remember waiting for those curtains to part; how the stage would come into view, glowing under bright lights that dissolved everything else, as though I’d been hypnotized. A band is playing a soft tune from an earlier era, “String of Pearls.” One of Glenn Miller’s hits. My kind of music. “Did you know the Glenn Miller Orchestra played on that very stage? And Jimmy Dorsey?”
“Lots of people have played here. Come on.” Daisy pulls on my arm as though I’m an errant child. Tiered wooden booths occupy one side of the ballroom and are tucked under green-and-white-striped awnings, each booth numbered for reservations. I search for booth 110 and when my eyes settle on it I have to fight back tears. I take in a breath to calm myself. The walls above the booths are painted with oceanfront murals that used to whisk me away from the cold Iowa nights. I get a vague whiff of salt air and see the waves washing against the shore. I blink and look away. How easy it is for my mind to travel back in time. It must be this place. The clouds that float across the arched ceiling to look like the night sky. The ocean waves on the back wall. The wooden booths and the lighted palm trees. Nothing has changed. Tables with white linens occupy the center of the floor. Filling them are framed pictures and posters showing the development of the fire department, including historical fires in the community. I’m drawn to a photo of the original Surf Ballroom, which burned down a year before this one was built in 1948. Next to it is a newspaper clipping showing a crowd gathered around the burned remains. My throat tightens and I can almost the feel the smoke choking me again, my helplessness as the ceiling collapsed. Memories have a way of doing that to you, resurfacing despite time and distance and attempts to forget. “Arson or natural causes?” I jump and take a step back. “What?” Harry, my son-in-law, hands me a glass of champagne. “I noticed you looking at the pictures of the original building. We were talking about it down at the firehouse, debating whether we could still solve the puzzle of that fire sixty years later. You were what, about eighteen when it burned down? Do you remember it?” I fan myself with the flyer, feeling suddenly hot. “Vaguely. I heard it was bad wiring.” My voice sounds tinny, higher than it should.
“I’m not so sure about that. I think by using modern technology and interviewing people who still remember the event, well, we might figure out what actually caused it.” As the town’s fire chief, my son-in-law has a fascination with talking about anything fire-related. He has a receding hairline and hair that’s turned mostly gray, a nice, firm chin, and a manner that puts everyone at ease. But I’m shaking, nearly spilling the champagne. I take a sip of the bubbly, which tickles my nose. “You sound like an episode of CSI. You have a large crowd,” I say, derailing the conversation. “Yeah, half the town is here. Not to worry, though. We’re within the fire code occupancy limit. That’s part of the reason we chose this place.” “Why don’t you take Daisy on a nice cruise after this is over? Or at least a weekend in Minneapolis to visit your son.” Harry has two children from a first marriage. I don’t see them often enough, but have always considered them my own. Maybe a trip would put this nonsense of investigating the old fire out of Harry’s head. “We just saw John two weeks ago when we went to the Mall of America. A cruise might be nice, though.
If I could talk her into it, I’d do it in a nanosecond. But you know how she is.” He takes another swig of his drink. “If she’s worried about me, she shouldn’t be. I’d be fine.” “Maybe later. We’re both so busy right now.” He doesn’t say it, but I know I’m the reason she won’t go. “Mother,” Daisy taps my arm, and I’m grateful for the distraction. “I was just telling my friends that you and Dad met here.” Her friends are all tanned and wearing dresses similar to Daisy’s, like a high school clique thirty years later. And Daisy, just as she was then, is still at the center. “Um, yes, we did,” I say, not meeting her eyes. I feel twenty again, like I was at the grand opening of the Surf, just rebuilt after the fire. I’d worn a forest-green dress that had a tight waist and flared at the bottom. The place had been packed. I’d sat in booth 110. Our booth. I look down, breaking the spell. Maybe it’s too much being in this place again. Or maybe it’s this particular occasion, seeing photos of the burned-down Surf, reliving the memories of that day. “Did you spend every anniversary here?” one of Daisy’s friends asks. Daisy turns to me. “I don’t remember you two ever coming here. Why not?” “We came here before you were born.” I clear my throat. “The farm took all our time later on.” Harry picks up a portable microphone from the center table and speaks into it as a wide circle of people forms around him. “Thank you all for coming tonight. We wanted to have the Fireman’s Ball at the Surf because it holds a special place in the community. It’s a piece of our history and, let’s face it, a place where a lot of people have hooked up over the years.” The crowd laughs. “Some of you may know that there was another Surf Ballroom, one that burned down sixty years ago. As an engineer, I’ve always thought that studying past fires can help us learn about fire dynamics. I spent the last few years in the fire investigator training program in Des Moines. And with the help of my squad, we’re going to examine the file from the original Surf fire to see if we can use modern technology to determine what caused it.” The sound of clapping fills the ballroom and I bury my face in my glass of champagne. The bubbles no longer bother me. “This also happens to be where my in-laws met. We lost Sid last year. He was a volunteer with the department for many years, and even though I wish he could be here with us, I’m sure he is in spirit.” More clapping. I nod and finish my drink. A shadowy figure standing near the stage waves at me and I squint into the darkness. It’s a young man, but I don’t recognize him.
“Do you have anything to add, Lorraine?” Harry motions to me to step forward and hands me the microphone. Maybe it’s the bubbly, but I’m overcome with an urge to set the record straight. “I didn’t really meet Sid at the Surf.” I glance at my open-mouthed, wide-eyed daughter. I pause, wondering if I should say more. The young man is no longer there, but the attendance in the room has multiplied as people from my past mingle with the present guests. I see my brother Pete, looking like he did sixty years ago, swaying to the music. And now I see Pete’s buddy Mike Schmitt, drinking his beer off to the side, a shy smile on his face. I shake my head. What kind of illusion is this? They can’t be here, of course. But I can see them as surely as I see Glenn Miller standing on the stage. And is that Roy Orbison? And that boy playing a guitar, I’m sure he’s Buddy Holly. They’re here, all part of this place, just as much as the maple hardwood dance floor beneath my feet. The voices and songs crowd my head and suck all the air away, making it difficult to breathe. Flashes of light go off as people snap pictures. The room is hot and spinning. I try to fan myself but both hands are full. If only I could just breathe. The glass of champagne somehow slips from my hand. Then the microphone falls. I’m faintly aware of the shattering of glass on the wooden floor, the banging of the microphone as it hits, sending an explosion of high-frequency sound through the crowd. My weight gives way as I fall into the arms of my son-in-law, who catches me just before my head hits the floor.
In a time where it was expected for a woman to only marry and provide a good home for their spouse and family, Lorraine Kindred had other aspirations for her life, to become a well known singer. Everyone was encouraging of her dream, except her mother, she on the other hand wanted Lorraine to follow in her footsteps, and marry a local boy and settle down. The problem was then men on her mother's approved list didn't hold a candle to the man she loved with all her heart, a man that she knew that her mother would never approve of, nor let her marry. So she is left to decide whether she should follow her heart and be disowned by her family, or do what is expected and settle for a life she knows she will never be happy with...
After reading the synopsis for this one I was immediately taken with what I found, there was just something about it that spoke to me and had me wanting to dive in and devour every last page... and what a story it turned out to be!! From the very first page I was hooked, wrapped up in the touching story line, feeling the emotion behind every word, and left completely mesmerized. This was my first experience with Ms. Ellsworth's work, and I have to say I was quite pleased with what I found, she kept me completely enthralled from start to finish with this beautifully written tale, and turned me into a lifelong fan!
Highly recommend this one, Lorraine's heart wrenching journey is sure to touch the recesses of your heart, and move you beyond words!!
I voluntarily read and reviewed an advanced copy of this title.
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